Last year around this time I was really struggling with fear and anxiety! Re-reading some of my journal posts I thought to myself, dang girl, what was wrong with you??? haha. Except that it was so real then. I was living in fear of so much!
Today I was reading Psalm 27 aloud to my little ZJ. She was quite pleased I included her in my quiet time, so I need to start doing this more regularly. I’m not sure why I haven’t before now!
I wish I had read this daily during my struggles last year…
The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the defense of my life;
Whom shall I dread?
Thought a host encamp against me,
My heart will not fear;
Though war arise against me,
In spite of this I shall be confident. (vs. 1-3)
Then he goes on to talk about how he offers sacrifices with “shouts of JOY” because of the Lord’s deliverance.
You have been my help. (vs. 9)
If he’s offering shouts of joy after the Lord’s deliverance, what would be the opposite? despair?
I would’ve despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. (vs 13)
When we’re not joyful we’re often despairing. As the queen of dramatic emotions, Anne Shirley, famously said, “I’m in the depths of despair!” But instead of this guy despairing, he was shouting with joy! I’m gonna try that next time I’m falling down the slippery slope into despair. It’ll probably scare the heck out of Mozzie and ZJ, but it may work for me!
Hope you have a good rest of the week! Choose joy!
Well, it has been too long my dear blog…
As I type, i’m on my iPhone laying on the floor in my brothers room in Texas. I’ve finally finished my Christmas shopping and still am happy about the looks of my bank account. Working 13 days in a row almost killed me physically, but financially it is oh so unstressful!
Brittany and I were able to come to Texas for Christmas and I’m so glad we could come.
I’m also glad isaacs finally out of school!!
It’s been great to relax and be with the fam…
Beat dad at sudoku, eat moms food, argue with em, smile with gramps…
Life is Good.
~on the way out of church on Sunday morning.
Then you will say on that day,
“I will give thanks to You, O Lord;
For although You were angry with me,
Your anger is turned away,
And You comfort me.
“Behold, God is my salvation,
I will trust and not be afraid;
For the Lord God is my strength and song,
and He has become my salvation.”
Therefore you will joyously draw water
From the springs of salvation.
And in that day you will say,
“Give thanks to the Lord, call on His name.
Make known His deeds among the peoples;
Make them remember that His name is exalted.”
Praise the Lord in song, for He has done excellent things;
Let this be known throughout the earth.
Cry aloud and shout for joy, O inhabitant of Zion.
For great in your midst is the Holy One of Israel.
(I have read this every day this week)
Evening Prayer of Trust in God. (a Psalm of David)
Answer me when I call, O God of my righteousness!
You have relieved me in my distress,
Be gracious to me and hear my prayer.
O sons of men, how long will my honor become a reproach?
How long will you [ME!!] love what is worthless and aim at deception?
But know that the Lord has set apart the godly man for Himself;
The Lord hears when I call to Him.
Tremble, and do not sin;
Meditate in your heart upon your bed, and be still.
Offer the sacrifices of righteousness,
And trust in the Lord.
Many are saying, “Who will show us any good?”
Lift up the light of Your countenance upon us, O Lord!
You have put gladness in my heart,
More than when their grain and new wine abound.
In peace I will both lie down and sleep,
For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.
Can’t rely on circumstances to make me happy. FOR THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH.
(benjamin and myself on the beautiful autumn day)
(i love waterfalls)
Wow, a year ago I was pushing pushing trying to get through school so that I could graduate from Nursing School.
SO much has happened.
It’s almost 2011. A new year.
It’s time to start looking back over the past year and seeing what God did in my life.
It’s time to see what I’m thankful for! 🙂 (I already know what’s going to be on the top)
I’m still trying to find what God wants me to do with my life in 2011. I want to do what HE wants…
Benjamin and I went hiking yesterday with a church he’s been going to on Wednesday nights. It was fun 🙂 I’ve been wanting to go hiking ever since I moved here in July, so I was pretty stoked. I’ll post a few pictures when I get back to the apartment tonight after work. Then we went to hear the band (Awaken) play. That was great! I got to hear them play Dear X (a song that means a lot to me) finally and it was pretty awesome. (The police came and told them to stop because they were being too loud. that was kind of funny.)
I still can’t believe it’s already November. Wow. I’m wearing a hoodie everyday now. No more shorts. (Except yesterday after hiking part of the 6 miles) I’m glad Benjamin gave me a warm jacket 🙂 YaY.
I can’t wait to finish this last month of school. oh BOY!
“I will praise You in this storm” (Go listen to this song by Casting Crowns)
my Jesus is a Friend who sticks closer than a brother!